Endeavor

Creative endeavors. I love that word, endeavor. It has a great sense of mysterious whimsy and yet a slight air of passion. This is something that will be part of my 2011 existence. Figuring out how to put all of my creative thoughts and ideas into a cohesive creative endeavor.

While we're on the topic of my not-so distant future in... something, I might as well get off my chest the loss of patience I am experiencing with my current struggle.

Pulling up stakes twice in 10 years and moving around, has proven to be one of the mightiest of lifes teaching tools. On the other side of that, is the almighty human need of providing for myself. In comes the service industry to save the day! (pompous super hero music follows) Meeting a quick group of friends, which is the biggest plus in my experience and then of course the quick cash. No one can deny that it is so hard to give this up. When I am in need of quick revenue, I pick up a shift and the need is sated. But I'm getting off track.

I am getting older. (dwindling game show loss sound follows) I get irritated much quicker, I get tired a lot faster and let's face it, I am the grumpy "old" lady at work. This is where my patience has thinned the most. What ever became of just picking up this line of work to get extra cash and moving on? The lack of patience here lies in myself. I have been too compliant with my own ways to really push myself in another direction.

So here it comes, another year. Another chance to make something more meaningful of my passions and energies. Not wasting them on another persons subsistence, but to make them more useful by taking a new and improved approach on all things. Wheather they are whims or full blown ideas. Really getting out there and starting a new endeavor.